A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true...

For some reason I have this song playing in my head all morning.
Not sure why, but I guess this is one of those moments that I wish I can get away from reality, you know, live in the dream. My dreamland.

Strange as it is, my dreamland has was never the fairy tale like most people have. Never, I dreamt of knight in the shining armour. Perhaps that's because I'm a practical person? Or because I've been 'exposed' to the real life a little too early.

You see, my dream has always been to be surrounded by many children. Knowing 'men' is not my best department, I guess these children would be orphans... wait, let me re-phrase: Knowing I suck most when it comes to 'men'... yep, that's more like it. Well, I have always wanted to own an orphanage. Giving to those in need has always been my calling. And I think it's best to give to children. I mean, adults should be able to work or at least take care of themselves. The children on the other hand, are very vulnerable and, well, they just deserve to be protected.

I have always wanted this. I remember when I went to a convention and was told about these deBrabender (I think that's what they're called) who own their own orphanage in Africa, I got really jealous. No, well, just a bit, I guess. But that time I felt like part of my dream came true. That it can actually be done. I still remember that feeling I had in my heart. That wonderful feeling. Of course I have to be filthy rich first. =(

Great, now I wish someone RICH would be willing to marry me and let me live my life-long dream. Knowing myself, and how I look like, this man would have to be blind. And deaf too, otherwise he'll find me very boring for I don't talk much. Wait, maybe I should find an invalid. But then it would be too obvious that I only want his money. >:)

Yeah, so much for that. Back to reality, I'll just have to work my ass out for that money. And with how much I'm earning, I guess that will forever be a dream. OK, now I'm actually hoping that someone is reading this and give me some miracle. A white knight perhaps? Haaaha! Really, I have only 'seen' a knight one time, when someone read to me something that sounds like 'strong are those who are loved, brave are those who love'. I don't know what would caused me to conjure up that image. Well, I guess if you picture the 'strong, courageous and love' together, that's what you get.

Lucky for someone to be able to feel that. To love, and be loved. Wonder when will I have a chance for that. All this while, the guys I've fallen for will be running as fast and as far away as from me. No matter how 'in love' they pretend to be at first, once I start to show signs that I like them, it just stops. THEY stop. Seriously! Not like I wish they'd be on their knees in front of everybody, nor tell everyone that they're with this fat girl, just letting me know that they care for me is good enough. I guess there's no love for fat girls afterall.

Now, I think I should stop. I really should get back to reality, and back to work!