Butterflies in my stomach

I have been feeling weird since 12pm.

My stomach feels queasy, like everytime I have to do presentation or public speaking.

My heart beats fast, like I was running when someone is chasing after me with a huge knife (yeah, like in the recent dream).

My head feels light, like when I stood at the outdoor transmission floor at KL Tower.

 

But I can't identify which emotion I'm feeling.  Because I haven't been able to access my emotions for about a month now.

 

Picture this:

My heart beats fast, my eyes teary, my hands shake.

But I don't feel angry, or sad.

My lips break into a smile, my spine tingles, my chest feels 'opened'.

But I don't feel love, or happy.

 

 

It's really funny, I think, to be able to sense all physical reactions but not put my finger on what I really feel.

It's also very confusing, because I get almost the same physical reactions for some emotions.

 

I used to be able to sense another's feeling - love, anger, confusion.  But no more.

Now I can only see their faces, and think hard, what the face potrays.

 

Honestly, I feel really hollow.

And sometimes I wonder whether I'm still human.

But most of the time I wonder what got me this way.

Yes, I have been feeling low for a few months, but I have felt worse for longer time before.

So it can't be that my current crisis that caused me this 'disfunction'.

What did, then?